Ever cheat in school?
only on my statistics final... but that was not intentional, the idiot professor handed me half the answer key along with the test packet (by accident, of course) and I only noticed the answer key when I was halfway done with the test... I figured returning it to him would be a bit suspicious an hour into the test... and not using it would be... stupid...

What is the point?

reclining in my chair, I’m falling
I’m trying to sit still but my mind is racing.
it’s throwing me off balance, and i’m falling again, so I close my eyes to make it stop...
which doesn’t work as well as I had hoped.
my eyes don’t focus for shit anyway (recent side-effect of god-knows what) so I might as well keep them closed... might as well sit here and stare into the insides of my head, my thoughts doing hula hoops around my brain stem....
my medulla oblongata?
my nucleus cuneatus?
it’s 2300 hours...

I'm an acquired taste.
I brush my teeth in the shower.
Sometimes I hate myself quite a bit.
I can't just do nothing.
Time pisses me off.
Socks must match.
I'm indifferent.
Unfocused.
Imperfect.
I like stickers, sparkles, shiny things.
I write.
Scribble.
Draw.
Write some more.
Highlight.
Circle.
Outline.
Number.
List.
...all in my journals, notebooks, workbooks, scrapbooks.
I'm in control of my life... I write that 15 times.
Recite it in front of the mirror.

“it’s a tough industry, modeling” someone said to me earlier today.... he was right, but he got me to think, what’s not? What is an “easy” industry? If you’re a plumber, you gotta work your ass off. If you’re in real estate, you gotta work your ass off, toll booth money collector guy... maybe not super hard... but chances are he has a second job. No matter where you turn, you have to put in a fair share of work to barely make ends meet.