05.12.08
DIE or DON'T...but Please Decide
Don't Let Me Get Me by Pink

Sometimes I can be an asshole insensitive, yea, I know that, and by the time you finish reading this post, you will think that I am... or maybe you will not, I don’t know. I am not easily angered, but nothing pisses me off more than people that have absolutely no consideration for other people’s feelings... especially when it’s my feelings that are not being considered And I’m not talking about an inconvenience or an annoyance... like not calling someone back, or cutting someone off on the road, or having to check in at 3 different checkpoints before being allowed to enter a building. I’m talking about acts that hurt people’s feelings. Acts that are avoidable and unnecessary, like starting a discussion in mixed company on a topic that you KNOW will offend a certain person or make someone uncomfortable, telling your friend an outfit makes her look like a fat pig, rather than telling her it’s unflattering, breaking up with your significant other on their birthday or valentine’s day or some other special day rather than calling it quits on a random tuesday, get my drift? Most recent addition to my list of inconsiderate shit: suicide attempt notification. Yes you heard me right... it’s fucking inconsiderate unless ALL of the following conditions are met:

a. you are notifying the person with hopes that they will verbally/physically stop you or save you
b. the person is within reasonable distance to be able to physically stop you or save you in a reasonable time
c. the person has the means to stop you, find you, save you, etc.
d. the person has previously expressed an interest in stopping you or saving you
e. the person is undoubtedly available to do the stopping or saving
f. the person gives a shit

Sounds complicated? Do not IM someone that lives 3 thousand miles away and inform them that you are set on dying tonight, so that they start freaking out when they wake up and see the message followed by a string of apologies and farewells. That’s all I’m trying to say here. Even if the person cares deeply and missed the incoming notification of your attempt at premature departure from this cruel world, they are in no position to do anything but freak out and feel guilty that they weren’t at the computer, or didn’t answer the phone or whatever they THINK maybe they could’ve done.... blah blah blah.... it’s a fucking guilt trip....

It’s not nice.

Especially when a person does this numerous times. And you freak out bimonthly when they claim it’s their last night on earth and then reappear days/weeks/months later when they are out of the coma-like sleep/emergency room/psych ward. You stop freaking out, and you are PISSED that they put you through a day/week/month of hysteria and daily obituary checking...

Fuck you. Dipshit.
Just kill yourself already. Every time you pull this shit, you hurt EVERY person close to you, EVERY person that cares about you, even those that don’t care and are somehow sucked in. Yes I know you figure “no one cares about your pitiful existence”, but if you believed that you wouldn’t be texting me at all hours of the night from a fucking bridge. People worry and stress and cry and pray and do whatever else people in the situation do. They hope you “get better”... but all you know how to do is self-destruct... and you even suck at that! You “claim” to want help, but don’t go and get it, you seek out advice, but don’t take it. You know that the only person that can change anything about you is you and yet you won’t even try... because you can’t get past making yourself a victim...  because you “feel the pain of the world”. Well... feel MY pain... pain I didn’t sign up for feeling in becoming your friend... pain that I don’t want or need... pain that is an indication that i do care... yes, someone cared about you... past tense... because I will not stand patiently and wait.......... while you take all the pills that may or may not do the trick. On that note I suggest cyanide, but since it may be hard to find, there are a dozen substances that are guaranteed to kill you in your nearest home depot, or you can try gravity.... that works too, but go for something with a higher degree of certainty... unless of course you don’t REALLY want to die. Die or don’t, but stop it with the attention-whoring-look-at-me-look-at-me-attempting.....


Toodles
Me



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[Thu, 06.05.08 02:45am]
Anonymous (not verified)

I can see your points here..maybe some people just want attention and maybe they are inconsiderate of the people who love them...if you have ever been scarily depressed or out of your mind you act in different ways that can't exactly be broken down into what you are talking about..its kind of like an insane person and menz rea to commit a crime..they don't always have the proper faculties to commit the crime against your friendship that you accuse them of

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